Gratitude

So, I haven’t blogged in a while. And just browsing thru my previous entries, looks like I have a lot of angst last year. It’s funny … it appears that the whole point of these blogs is that I’m God’s gift to men, I’m the girl you’d like to bring home to Mom and that all the guys I dated just can’t get the message. Well, after one year (and I’m being inaccurate here … lol), I saw the light. It’s time I get out of these delusions and see the whole picture crystal clear.

Late last year, I was already in a surrender phase. Yes, I’ll be one of those women who’ll always be part of the singles crowd. Then someone handed me out this The Secret book, and I got all hyped up! I even got this mantra that I’ll be a dating machine, and I spread the word like crazy. Wahaha. Surprisingly, it worked, well kind of! It was a thrilling adventure and for some reason, it felt like you’re on E 24/7. Then, I stopped thinking about this conspiracy thing for some reason … and out goes my social life too …

I guess what I’m just trying to say is, the Law of Attraction is true. Once you make a decision, the universe will conspire to make it happen. So what went wrong? The universe got confused with what I desired. Lol. It’s me … I don’t know what I want short term and long term. I want to be the snob chick (my frustration, lol) men go gaga over. I want to be just a plain housewife and spend my husband’s earnings. I want a less stressful professional life. I don’t want to work anymore. I want a fitness club-spa-mall-home routine. I want to travel. I want someone with me. I want to have a kid and I don’t mind being a single mom.

I need to prioritize, I need focus.

If there’s one thing that the book taught me, it’s gratitude. I’ve enveloped myself into feelings of emptiness and disappointments. In retrospect, I have an edge against some people around me. I just wasn’t thankful enough. And if I’m going to enumerate all of them, I’ll be drafting a novel instead.

It’s time to be thankful and not be regretful.

What we think about and THANK about is what we bring about.