Rejected!

It’s been awhile since I had a good date. A date where you really enjoyed his company, one that you can really say you had fun. It was that interesting because today, even after almost two years, I still think where he probably is, what stuff is he doing right now, what keeps him damn busy. Damn busy that he can’t even bother texting me, or calling me …

I just had a chat with a friend recently, and a common friend informed her that this guy is still painting the town red. She said he doesn’t have the heartthrob looks, but when he sits down with a girl and starts a conversation with her, the girl will no doubt go ga-ga over him. What’s more annoying is, they’re not just ordinary girls, but oozing hot, sexy girls!

It's frustrating, but I agree – based on my experience. I had hesitations initially dating him. He looked plain and uninteresting that time. But I was in an alien town and all my friends flew back to Manila. My days-off were spent just dozing off. Opportunity presented itself -- just to have a spice in my life, why not date him? After a couple of dining here and there, I realized he was charming and has an absolute gift of gab. I was completely bowled over.

Fast forward --- I know he’s not that into me, and I know he will never be head-over-heels in love with me. Perhaps I know what went wrong. On hindsight, it was doomed from the start, I was just on denial thinking I’ll be an exception. I thought I was special. Dang, how can I be sooo stupid!

Right now, I feel rejected. Rejected by someone who’s not even worth it. How come he goes on with his usual life while here I am, whining and blogging about this shit? He can get a date effortlessly while I’m stuck in my room watching all the TV series that can be downloaded at PirateBay? Ain’t that pathetic?

Well, who says life is fair? Got to get out and have a life! And yes, I need a date please.

New Year's Resolutions - 2009

You can consider me as one of the folks who still comes up with New Year’s resolution. Towards the end of 2008, I really put some thought on kicking one or two bad habits come Jan 1st. You know, to start the year right yada, yada, yada…..


So, I had three resolutions: 1) Quit smoking 2) Do boxing again 3) Let go of emotional baggage (Read: Let go of guys who are not into you). And I followed the advice of the experts --- let your friends know your resolutions to support you and to challenge you. I know this year will be different and I plan to fulfill all of them.

2009 came. Jan 1st, I was so pissed off by my ex that I called my friend, who was also pissed off by his ex. We had a ranting and venting session at Starbucks and to really let out the anger, Marlboro lights was all willing to be part of our company. So there goes my #1.

It’s now February. I have no clue where my boxing gloves are. The wraps I bought 6 months ago are still in my car compartment – plastic wrapped. I have a thousand excuses when my friend invites me to the gym. I am 10 lbs heavier than last year and I still am not motivated to go boxing. So #2? Yeah, you guessed it!

New Year’s resolution #3 is kinda tricky. Let me just say, by default, I was not able to kick this habit. Why? Because they’re not popping into my life at the moment. Technically I never had the opportunity to let them go – because they let go of me first. Ouch! Haha. It’s quite hard dealing with guys who are not into you. Trust me! See my future blogs (note: plural) on this topic.

So, statisticians out there, count me in on the people-who-make-new-year-resolutions-but-don’t-get-to-fulfill-them list. Sad to say I’m part of this sorry number. What’s more pathetic is, I’m part of this sorry number year-after-year. Damn my friends who make me not forget my promises from last year.

In short, 2009 is no different than 2008. Same shit different year ….